1 week post op

So today makes 1 week that I had my surgery. Panniculectomy for those that are just now starting to read. They removed 20 lbs of skin from my stomach. That is a hell of a lot of weight to carry around for no reason. I am not sure if it will help my back pain or at lease minimize it. I can't tell just yet. When I heal more and become more active we shall see. I had my first post op visit yesterday. The dr took out 2 of the 4 drains I had and he took the dressing off my incision said I didn't need to wear it and I could now take a normal shower. I have been craving meat and proteins alot this past week. I asked the dr about it he said its normal and my body is just trying to heal itself. It does feel weird when I stand and my hand automatically touches my thigh. I believe it was the best decision I could make due to the pain in my back and I hope it helps. I still need, my legs, and chest and arms done but one thing at a time...Yesterday was also the first time I put on underwear since surgery and when i felt that my belly no longer stuck out the leg holes I cried..Time for some cute panties!!

Surgery in 6 days!

The past few weeks have been full of anxiety for me every since my insurance approved my surgery it all went downhill from there. Most people say I should be excited.. and I am.. but the anxiety over rides that excitement. The excitement of how much better I will feel to be free of another 25-30 lbs of excess skin from my waist. What is causing me the most anxiety is the thought of being stitched from one hip to the other. I tried to get something for anxiety from my pcp but he gave me everything but, he gave me ambien, he gave me paxil... I'm changing him once I'm done with all this. I need a doctor who listens to what my problems are not one who prescribes whatever he feels like giving me.. Next week on Tuesday, Sept 20, 2011 I will be having surgery... wow 6 days away. I'm going to stop thinking about it now.. before I start freaking out.