Nerves are kicking in..

So I have a surgery date of August 3, 2011. Today I got the call for the date of my pre op testing... yeah... now is when the nerves kick in... 

I know that this surgery will make me feel better, my back in general. If you have ever been pregnant then you know what a strain that it takes on your back no I'm not pregnant lol... I just have 25+lb of excess skin hanging off my waist. I'm also not looking forward to the weeks of pain... I am pretty much always in pain but... I don't know how different this will be... 

All those lies

 

All these years, All those lies... How can you say 'I love you' as you look in to my eyes? How can you sit there and cry as if you really mean those words you say, when inside you are laughing at this game that you play... Even though I didn't totally trust you, I gave you my heart... but you didn't care with your lies you tore it apart. The lying and the cheating, saying you'd always be mine. So many others, I don't even know how you found the time. All the emotions you've played with, all the hearts that you've broken. Telling me things that to another you've already spoken. What did I ever do to deserve what you've done? To be used and abused all for your fun. It's not what you've done, but the lies that you've told. You've done nothing but hurt me, yet you act so cold. Now that your fun has come to an end and the game you've been playing is lost... You'll realize one day when your crying and alone, that you're the one who's paying the cost. By Poet730   (About Poet730)

My heart won't let...

I want to believe you,  but my heart just won't let. I want to forgive you, but my mind won't forget. I want to take your word that you're sorry for all you've done. I want to believe you when you say you were immature and only wanted to have fun.  I wish you knew the pain I felt when you left me all alone. I wish I could count the tears I cried, all the nights you didn't come home.  With every tear I shed a piece of my heart I lost. For you having fun, I'm the one who paid the cost.  You said you'd never hurt me,  you promised to never break my heart. Your promise was broken that night your words tore me apart.  The words that came out I could not believe. How this has happened I couldn't conceive.  We love each other you said to me, with those words you destroyed my heart.  As the tears rolled down my face  I was slowly falling apart. You love each other I said? How long have you know her?  My past months with you suddenly became a blur.  We can still be friends you said to me, All our dreams destroyed due to your unloyalty. The one I gave my heart for, the one who said would love me forever more.  Is the one who threw my world away, with his words he killed me that day. That is a day in my life that I will never forget. You caused me so much pain, maybe that's why my heart won't let... By Poet730   (About Poet730)  © 2002 Poet730 (All rights reserved)

Forget it...

 

In your mind, I know you thought I'd always be there. Doing what you wanted, thinking I'd always care. You expect me to forget everything you've done. You expect me to believe, now I'm the only one. I can't look you in the eyes and believe what you say. I don't want to start over the pain just went away. You expect me to trust you after all the times you lied. You expect me to forget all the nights for you I cried. You expect me to forget all the pain you caused. You expect me to believe that without me you're lost. I can't let myself take you back for a simple reason; I'm not going to forget, I'm not going to believe. I don't trust you now or ever, So why don't YOU just forget it???? Forget that you loved me, forget that I cared. Forget that I exist, or the times that we shared. Believe there's no hope we'll ever be again. Forget that you ever knew me my friend. By Poet730  © 2001 Poet730 (All rights reserved)

Love affair

This poem was written for a friend who's spouse was hooked on drugs...

Love affair

My world has become so dark and cold, Since she came into your life. I thought it would be me forever you'd hold, but it seems you found a new wife. Every morning when you wake up, There's only one thing on your mind. When and where you'll see her again. She's become everything, Your mother, your lover, your best friend. Little by little our things start to disappear, seems you'll give anything just to have her near. You find any excuse to leave for hours at a time. Then you come back home and expect everything to be fine. You've driven me to the point of insanity, I don't know what to say or do. Sometimes I feel the only way to stop it is to kill you... I'm beginning to believe that for us there's no hope. Ever since your love affair began... Her name is... DOPE. By Poet730  © 2001 Poet730 (All rights reserved)

Poem for 9/11

Together as one
 

So much tragedy, So much lost... So many innocent people paying the cost. All the innocent children that lost a mom or dad. Everytime I look back on this day it will make me so sad. To look into that empty sky where those towers use to stand. All destroyed by some cowards plan. Their plan was to make us weak, but they only made us strong. Together as one we will unite to put them exactly where they belong... By Poet730

First Poem I ever wrote

                               I was about 13 yrs old 

                            Now that you are gone

Now that you are gone, I sit here feeling blue; Wishing that you were here sitting with me too. All the feelings of what could have been,are all in the past; I didn't see what happened it all just went so fast. Now that you are gone, my world seems dark and gray. You were the sunshine of my life but now that you are gone, I don't see a single ray. By Poet730